It’s been awhile, yeah? I really need to keep up with this blog, because doing so really helps me to keep going during the tough times, helps me focus during the busy times, and always perks up my creativity.
Since the last time I wrote, my friend Maryellen has gone on to her next journey. Her memorial service was lovely, and the lobby of the church was filled with many of the quilts she had made. They were absolutely beautiful, and seeing them all in one place made us all even more aware of what an amazingly talented woman she was.
I don’t like the “was” in that last sentence…yet her quilts live on, a wonderful legacy for her family and friends.
The anniversary of my Papa-san’s suicide was Monday and I always have a hard day on that date. I miss him so much. He was an island boy and loved da ʻāina so much. Maybe what I’ll do here is write some stories about him and that will help.
Part of my busyness is because Nolemana and I are in the middle of getting ready to downsize and leave this home that we’ve lived in for the past 25+ years. This has been a tough decision, especially for me. I love our place; I love the view, the forest, the quiet. I love waking up to quiet and going moemoe in quiet. I love all the forest birds that come to eat at our feeders. I love looking out over the valley and seeing sunsets, rain, fog, snow, hail, and sunshine moving towards us. I love our neighbors.
To think of leaving makes my heart hurt. But Nolemana really wants to retire, and heaven knows, he deserves it. And since we can’t retire till we sell this place, well, you get the picture. So we’ve been packing up stuff and moving it to a storage unit, because I simply don’t have time to do much sorting before the move. We’ll sort all the books and CDs later. We’re also getting rid of lots of stuff, and that part feels good.
It’s a huge, huge, job. And I remind myself that ke Akua has never failed to find us exactly the right house for our needs. Do I really think He’s gonna say, “Sorry, Mokihana; I already wen find you five perfect places and I no going doyem nomo”? Nope. I believe He will find us just what we need and will be happy with. We’re going to stay in this area; I wish we could move back home, but the Pacific Northwest is wonderful and we love it here.
And I must admit that not having to work will give me a lot more free time. We can travel more (you know how much we love road trips!), and relax more. The hale won’t be cluttered, and we will have a guest room when friends and ʻohana need a place to stay.
Yeah, it’s gonna be hard to leave. But one day at a time, one step at a time. If can, can; if no can, no can.