Last Wednesday I had to say goodbye to my special girl, Noelani, whose name means ‘heavenly mist’ in Hawaiian. She’d been diagnosed with yet another mammary tumor and as she’d already had two cancer surgeries, I opted against a complete mastectomy. At age 13 I felt it’d just be too much for her. Our wonderful vet, Cinda Scott, DVM, at Springwater Veterinary Wellness Center put Noelani on some natural, herbal, supplements, and by doing so, I really feel she was able to extend my girl’s life by three months past the cancer specialist’s worst case scenario prognosis.
Even though I couldn’t be in the room for the exam, I was able to be with Noelani for the last time; like other vets, Dr. Scott makes exceptions for the end of life here on earth time, for which I was extremely grateful. I don’t think I could’ve done it otherwise.
This has been an incredibly difficult week; the end was so sudden, so unexpected, and I can’t write this without tears rolling down my face. Our daily/nightly routines are gone, like how she’d cuddle next to me every. single. night, how she’d follow me to the kitchen for her nightly treat before bed, how she loved to be brushed, and how she’d talk to me. After both my knee surgeries, when I’d sit in the recliner, she’d always lie down on my lap, purring and kneading the blanket over me.
We add these wonderful pets to our home, knowing that our time with them will never be as long as we hope, but we do it anyway. I console myself with the knowledge that although she had a traumatic early life, she felt safe and secure with us. We gave her a good home. I still feel as though she’s right here with me, and I think that veil between us is thin, so I keep talking to her.
If you’d like to read the story of her adoption, it’s here.
Aloha ʻoe, my sweet girl. You enriched my life for ten years and you will live always in my heart. Rest in aloha till we meet again.